15th Day of School

I think I had an alright day. Until after school when I called my mom.

She thinks I'm a liar. She thought I went job hunting last night with my friend Natalie instead of going to her house and doing AP Lang homework. I DID DO MY HOMEWORK. Like what the actual hell!

THERE'S A STAGE IN LIFE WHERE YOUR CHILD GROWS UP.

I'M TIRED OF BEING DEPENDENT, OMG.

I'M TIRED OF HEARING "Money is a problem" or "Sorry, I don't feel like going there."

ALL THIS SHIT WOULDN'T BE AN ISSUE IF I HAD MY DRIVER'S LICENSE. IT WOULDN'T HAPPEN IF YOU TRUSTED ME MORE. IT WOULDN'T HAPPEN IF I HAD A JOB. STOP FUCKING COMPLAINING TO ME, AND JUST LET ME DO MY OWN THING, OMFG.

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So anyways, during the phone call, she practically grounded me because I simply said, AND I QUOTE, "Well, I got step one done: Filled out a job application. Now to see what lies ahead of me." and now I'm not allowed to hang out after school.

PLEASE UNDERSTAND I'M ALMOST 17 AND I WANT TO BE TREATED LIKE A DAMN ADULT.

I've cried over this plenty of times, because it just IS NOT right to NOT trust your 17 year old daughter. I'm not a kid. I'm responsible. I understand school is important, obviously it is, but that shouldn't stop me from living a teenage life. 

MOM, YOU WERE A TEENAGER ONCE. I KNOW YOU WANTED FREEDOM. IF YOU WOULD JUST LET DAD CONVINCE YOU IT'S JUST HOW A TEEN GROWS UP, INSTEAD OF YOU FORCING AN OPINION OUT OF HIS MOUTH, THEN JUST FUCKING LISTEN FOR ONCE. I KNOW. I FUCKING KNOW YOU MIGHT NOT WANT ME GROWING UP BECAUSE YOU THINK I'M IMMATURE, BUT IF YOU KNEW ME LIKE MY FRIENDS DO, YOUR OPINION WOULD BE THE TOTAL OPPOSITE. 

I've explained to her that if this keeps happening, then I most likely won't see her ever again after I move out. It includes losing contact. Because she won't be worth it after it because I know and I feel how much she doesn't trust me. It hurts me, and actually brings my self esteem down a lot. Because she views me as childish, immature, a liar.. like, really? Aren't you suppose to be supportive? Instead of keeping your kids from the big world, shouldn't you be letting them risk it? It's how you learn mistakes. You can't learn without mistakes. 

Sorry, readers. I'm just upset. I'll go rage while I do homework. Toodles

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